Do I feel like I've started?

 Think of the whole process like an improvistion. 

Nobody's judging. 

Just a small insight into this morning's discussion!

My current thinking...

Starting----->official start date----->making the physical start---->when do I feel I've actually started

---->can one go back to how it is before one started

How do I set myself small targets? So that I feel I am achieving something along the way? 

Which strand of thought should I tackle first?

And how do I make any sense of my ideas?

Or are they all just useless words without any body or depth behind them?

I feel like I can make a point but can't bring it round in a complete circle.

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  1. Clare Isaacs27 September 2020 at 07:56

    Hi Lauren, I can relate to this post. I feel like i've started, on this journey, but at the same time as ive had no feedback or physical hand in dates its a strange feeling like we haven't really started. If that makes sense? I suppose as humans we enjoy that sense of completion, but on this course we wont get to that point really until the bitter end.
    x

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    1. Lauren SK14 October 2020 at 01:53

      Totally agree!... Even after a second Skype workshop! In that moment it feels so good and as though we are all part of a team and then as soon as it's just me sitting with my laptop I start to lose my way again.

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